Memoirs of a Broken Heart

by bioassay

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bioassay's debut release. As a bonus for purchasing the whole album, you'll get a printable PDF tray card and liner, and the individual covers as the individual tracks were released between 2008 and 2009.

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released December 1, 2010

Music and Lyrics © 2010 Mauricio Alanis
Backing Vocals on "Grey Clouds" by Holly Jensen
Production and Mixdown: Mauricio Alanis
Design and Layout: Mauricio Alanis, Holly Jensen

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bioassay Los Angeles, California

bioassay is an electronic music project formed in early 2008 by Mauricio A. ([dj] ::analogue::) as an aural experiment drawn on the influences of Electro-Industrial, Futurepop and Electronic Music. Joined by Holly J. (DJ Engelockt) in 2009, the project soon incorporated background video montages during live performances as well as live keyboard support and backup vocal contribution by Engelockt. ... more

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Track Name: ESD
Instrumental
Track Name: To The Other Side
There was a time back when I felt that I should stay
That it was really worth reliving this boring play
There were those times in which I felt that I should die
And that the life I'd lived was nothing but a lie

The day you came into my life I was so glad
Because today these situations were so sad
You were a drug that let me open up my mind
You were the only one I knew that was so kind



To the other side you'll take me
To the farthest reaches of my mind
Open up my saddened eyes to see
So perhaps I wouldn't be so blind
As we fly don't worry
Everything's gonna be alright
My friend, there is no hurry...
Fall to the other side



And then one day I let you take me to your place
And things were wrong the night I looked into your face
It was too clear that you were nothing good for me
I realised that I was better being free

But yet your hold was far too strong for me to bear
And in my darkest times I found no one to care
But in my deep despair I suddenly broke through
I realised that I was finally over you



To the other side you'll take me
To the farthest reaches of my mind
Open up my saddened eyes to see
So perhaps I wouldn't be so blind
As we fly don't worry
Everything's gonna be alright
My friend, there is no hurry...
Fall to the other side...


Music and Lyrics © 2008 - Mauricio Alanis
Track Name: Reversed Polarity
"Come see..." you said to me
"I sought the time 'till I finally could be free"
Just when you thought I'd feel the pain
You didn't know that I had beat you at your game



You thought you hurt me when you turned away from me
But all I wanted was to finally be free
You said I was demanding
You said that I was blind
But you don't even know that I won't let you in my mind



As time went by I did forget
All the goals in life that I had never met
I realised there's more to life
Than all your spiteful words which cut you like a knife



You thought you hurt me when you turned away from me
But all I wanted was to finally be free
You said I was demanding
You said that I was blind
But you don't even know that I won't let you in my mind


Music and Lyrics © 2008 - Mauricio Alanis
Track Name: Tell Me Why
Please tell me something
That I can understand
Tell me the stories, tell me the reasons
You hold me in your hand...

I'm weary of my trying
of reaching out to absent hands
Our love is fading
Like footprints in the sand



You see the the sorrow in my eyes
You feel the distance in my mind
Why did you have to say these lies?
Why did you have to be unkind?




Please give me a reason
That I can really see
Just one explanation, some justification
On why you ran away from me

If I could say just one thing
Is I sincerely tried so hard
You turned in silence
And left trampled on my heart



You see the the sorrow in my eyes
You feel the distance in my mind
Why did you have to say these lies?
Why did you have to be unkind?


Music and Lyrics © 2009 - Mauricio Alanis
Track Name: Silence (Connexion Bizarre Edit)
I see it now - I fear it's happening once again:
This feeling long forgotten brooding inside
Your pale grey eyes are like poison in my veins
Your smile betrayed the heart now eager to try

But once again I lay and suffer in silence
I cannot see the paths that others take
Instead I drown myself in sorrows and voice
Where do I go? How do I make this decision alone?



I walk along this lonesome path alone
Is the conclusion just another lie?
I stand alone in silence far from home
While I lie down in silence here to die



I see you know -- you're standing lost and forlorn again
But now you know that it will be the same
Because you left my feelings battered and torn
Because to you this is only a game again

Now show me something I can believe in
To reassure me in this life of fear
Find me patience to feel beyond the pain
Give me the wisdom to see beyond the tears



I walk along this lonesome path alone
Is the conclusion just another lie?
I stand alone in silence far from home
While I lie down in silence here to die


Music and Lyrics © 2008 Mauricio Alanis
Track Name: Grey Clouds
They said "Be strong!" -- it's not so simple
How can it be when you don't know where you belong
"Your face is so long" but what else is there
When no one taught you how to be strong

Is it really so wrong to feel this way?



And these grey clouds shroud the sun
that I felt on my skin so long ago
And then today the sadness which fills my heart
I regret to say that it's starting to show

This is why I want to be another man
Who cannot touch the pain I hold in my hands
I'm not the same as you though these words confound
I never learned how to climb onto higher ground



I'll never be what I want to see
When I gaze at my own reflection
I always felt that I had been dealt
A pointless life full of imperfection

Is it really so wrong to feel this way?



And these grey clouds shroud the sun
that I felt on my skin so long ago
And still today the sadness which fills my heart
I regret to say that it's starting to show

This is why I want to be another man
Who cannot touch the pain I hold in my hands
I'm not the same as you though these words confound
I never learned how to climb onto higher ground



And these grey clouds shroud the sun
that we felt on our skin so long ago
And still today this grief which fills our hearts
I regret to say that it could tear us apart

This is why I want to see with other eyes
Who cannot see the hate that was born from the lies
I am the same as you our emotions unbound
One day we will ascend to higher ground


And these grey clouds shroud the sun
that we felt on our skin so long ago
And still today this grief which fills our hearts
I regret to say that it could tear us apart

This is why I want to feel with other skin
Who cannot feel the hate that was bred from the sin
I am the same as you our emotions unbound
Someday we will ascend to higher ground



Music and Lyrics © 2009 - Mauricio Alanis
Backing Vocals by Holly Jensen
Track Name: My Old Friend
I only want for you to look into these eyes
That all the things I said were really never lies
And I'm so sorry that I treated you this way
I really wished I'd had the heart to stay

My eyes glaze over when I think about your face
And with your smile I'd never felt so out of place
But now I don't deserve to know your face again
Somehow to know that I deserve this pain again

It's the final conclusion
It's the only solution



And for now this is goodbye to you, my friend
I really wanted us to last until the end
I died the day I blindly turned away from you
I cried the day I broke your trust in me in two

My old friend... we will never be the same
My old friend... things will never be the same



It's been so long since someone treated me so well
I didn't see your light within my lonely Hell
You were the only one who cared -- the one who knew
'cause I was lost and blind I took it out on you

I have to find myself before I can know you
But in reality I knew that we were through
I only hope some day you grace me with your smile
But I know that I could never be worthwhile

It's the final conclusion
It's the only solution



And for now this is goodbye to you, my friend
I really wanted us to last until the end
I died the day I blindly turned away from you
I cried the day I broke your trust in me in two

My old friend... we will never be the same
My old friend... things will never be the same


Music and Lyrics © 2008 Mauricio Alanis
Track Name: The Fantasy
Another state of confusion
Another hope gone astray
Another sleepless night alone in bed
Another wasted day



I want to look through your eyes,
I want to feel with your skin
I want to be
All the things I could never be
And this is only a story
And is this just another fantasy?



You were an angel to me
Dreamt of pure innocence
Since I first saw you out
On the dancefloor

As I held u in my arms
as I caressed your hair
As I ran my hands and fingers
all across your skin



I want to look through your eyes,
I want to feel with your skin
I want to be
All the things I could never be
And this is only a story
And is this just another fantasy?



When you said what you said
When you did what you did
That was the point at which
I knew that you were out of reach

But I was too blind to see
That it's so stupid of me
To place my hopes and dreams
in something that could never be



I want to look through your eyes,
I want to feel with your skin
I want to be
All the things I could never be
And this is only a story
And is this just another fantasy?
Track Name: Where?
The end of a species -- our soldiers die
Our children are offered as sacrifices - as immolations
To The Light of a Thousand Suns
As scapegoats of our own mistakes

Our cities are burning, our fields rot
The offspring wither away in the brutal clime
The distant sunrise comes --
In a rain of Blood, in a rain of Fire



Where is justice?
Where is friendship?
Where is love?
Where is God?



The sky is changing -- the birds are dead
Screams fill the air; Your children are gone
Shells fill the sky, you hide in shame
The rain is falling -- a rain of blood

Where are our leaders? Where is justice
Where is your god? Where is love?

Nowhere... Nowhere!



Where is justice?
Where is friendship?
Where is love?
Where is God?



Will we prevail? Will we survive?
To live another day, to tell another story
To raise another life
To care for another fellow

The time will come for us to stand
Standing to purpose, standing to calling
For justince, for friendship
For Humanity, for love


Music and Lyrics © 2008 Mauricio Alanis
Track Name: My Time
I'd climb the highest mountains
I'd sail the deepest seas
I'd comb the vastest deserts
Searching for that missing part of me

I felt that I should end it
I thought that I should flee
I'd never felt so lost and blind
But I was too far gone to see



And all I wanted was to be with you today
And all I needed was your sweet embrace today

This was not my time...
It is not my time...



And as you stood before me
When I gazed into your eyes
I thought that you might love me
That your words weren't only lies

Despite the way I felt for you
I knew you were not right
I put my fragile heart away
And left you to the night



And all I wanted was to be with you today
And all I needed was your sweet embrace today

This was not my time...
It is not my time...

This is not my time...
It is not my time...