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Memoirs of a Broken Heart

by bioassay

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1.
ESD 05:08
Instrumental
2.
There was a time back when I felt that I should stay That it was really worth reliving this boring play There were those times in which I felt that I should die And that the life I'd lived was nothing but a lie The day you came into my life I was so glad Because today these situations were so sad You were a drug that let me open up my mind You were the only one I knew that was so kind To the other side you'll take me To the farthest reaches of my mind Open up my saddened eyes to see So perhaps I wouldn't be so blind As we fly don't worry Everything's gonna be alright My friend, there is no hurry... Fall to the other side And then one day I let you take me to your place And things were wrong the night I looked into your face It was too clear that you were nothing good for me I realised that I was better being free But yet your hold was far too strong for me to bear And in my darkest times I found no one to care But in my deep despair I suddenly broke through I realised that I was finally over you To the other side you'll take me To the farthest reaches of my mind Open up my saddened eyes to see So perhaps I wouldn't be so blind As we fly don't worry Everything's gonna be alright My friend, there is no hurry... Fall to the other side... Music and Lyrics © 2008 - Mauricio Alanis
3.
"Come see..." you said to me "I sought the time 'till I finally could be free" Just when you thought I'd feel the pain You didn't know that I had beat you at your game You thought you hurt me when you turned away from me But all I wanted was to finally be free You said I was demanding You said that I was blind But you don't even know that I won't let you in my mind As time went by I did forget All the goals in life that I had never met I realised there's more to life Than all your spiteful words which cut you like a knife You thought you hurt me when you turned away from me But all I wanted was to finally be free You said I was demanding You said that I was blind But you don't even know that I won't let you in my mind Music and Lyrics © 2008 - Mauricio Alanis
4.
Tell Me Why 04:40
Please tell me something That I can understand Tell me the stories, tell me the reasons You hold me in your hand... I'm weary of my trying of reaching out to absent hands Our love is fading Like footprints in the sand You see the the sorrow in my eyes You feel the distance in my mind Why did you have to say these lies? Why did you have to be unkind? Please give me a reason That I can really see Just one explanation, some justification On why you ran away from me If I could say just one thing Is I sincerely tried so hard You turned in silence And left trampled on my heart You see the the sorrow in my eyes You feel the distance in my mind Why did you have to say these lies? Why did you have to be unkind? Music and Lyrics © 2009 - Mauricio Alanis
5.
I see it now - I fear it's happening once again: This feeling long forgotten brooding inside Your pale grey eyes are like poison in my veins Your smile betrayed the heart now eager to try But once again I lay and suffer in silence I cannot see the paths that others take Instead I drown myself in sorrows and voice Where do I go? How do I make this decision alone? I walk along this lonesome path alone Is the conclusion just another lie? I stand alone in silence far from home While I lie down in silence here to die I see you know -- you're standing lost and forlorn again But now you know that it will be the same Because you left my feelings battered and torn Because to you this is only a game again Now show me something I can believe in To reassure me in this life of fear Find me patience to feel beyond the pain Give me the wisdom to see beyond the tears I walk along this lonesome path alone Is the conclusion just another lie? I stand alone in silence far from home While I lie down in silence here to die Music and Lyrics © 2008 Mauricio Alanis
6.
Grey Clouds 05:20
They said "Be strong!" -- it's not so simple How can it be when you don't know where you belong "Your face is so long" but what else is there When no one taught you how to be strong Is it really so wrong to feel this way? And these grey clouds shroud the sun that I felt on my skin so long ago And then today the sadness which fills my heart I regret to say that it's starting to show This is why I want to be another man Who cannot touch the pain I hold in my hands I'm not the same as you though these words confound I never learned how to climb onto higher ground I'll never be what I want to see When I gaze at my own reflection I always felt that I had been dealt A pointless life full of imperfection Is it really so wrong to feel this way? And these grey clouds shroud the sun that I felt on my skin so long ago And still today the sadness which fills my heart I regret to say that it's starting to show This is why I want to be another man Who cannot touch the pain I hold in my hands I'm not the same as you though these words confound I never learned how to climb onto higher ground And these grey clouds shroud the sun that we felt on our skin so long ago And still today this grief which fills our hearts I regret to say that it could tear us apart This is why I want to see with other eyes Who cannot see the hate that was born from the lies I am the same as you our emotions unbound One day we will ascend to higher ground And these grey clouds shroud the sun that we felt on our skin so long ago And still today this grief which fills our hearts I regret to say that it could tear us apart This is why I want to feel with other skin Who cannot feel the hate that was bred from the sin I am the same as you our emotions unbound Someday we will ascend to higher ground Music and Lyrics © 2009 - Mauricio Alanis Backing Vocals by Holly Jensen
7.
I only want for you to look into these eyes That all the things I said were really never lies And I'm so sorry that I treated you this way I really wished I'd had the heart to stay My eyes glaze over when I think about your face And with your smile I'd never felt so out of place But now I don't deserve to know your face again Somehow to know that I deserve this pain again It's the final conclusion It's the only solution And for now this is goodbye to you, my friend I really wanted us to last until the end I died the day I blindly turned away from you I cried the day I broke your trust in me in two My old friend... we will never be the same My old friend... things will never be the same It's been so long since someone treated me so well I didn't see your light within my lonely Hell You were the only one who cared -- the one who knew 'cause I was lost and blind I took it out on you I have to find myself before I can know you But in reality I knew that we were through I only hope some day you grace me with your smile But I know that I could never be worthwhile It's the final conclusion It's the only solution And for now this is goodbye to you, my friend I really wanted us to last until the end I died the day I blindly turned away from you I cried the day I broke your trust in me in two My old friend... we will never be the same My old friend... things will never be the same Music and Lyrics © 2008 Mauricio Alanis
8.
The Fantasy 04:13
Another state of confusion Another hope gone astray Another sleepless night alone in bed Another wasted day I want to look through your eyes, I want to feel with your skin I want to be All the things I could never be And this is only a story And is this just another fantasy? You were an angel to me Dreamt of pure innocence Since I first saw you out On the dancefloor As I held u in my arms as I caressed your hair As I ran my hands and fingers all across your skin I want to look through your eyes, I want to feel with your skin I want to be All the things I could never be And this is only a story And is this just another fantasy? When you said what you said When you did what you did That was the point at which I knew that you were out of reach But I was too blind to see That it's so stupid of me To place my hopes and dreams in something that could never be I want to look through your eyes, I want to feel with your skin I want to be All the things I could never be And this is only a story And is this just another fantasy?
9.
Where? 04:31
The end of a species -- our soldiers die Our children are offered as sacrifices - as immolations To The Light of a Thousand Suns As scapegoats of our own mistakes Our cities are burning, our fields rot The offspring wither away in the brutal clime The distant sunrise comes -- In a rain of Blood, in a rain of Fire Where is justice? Where is friendship? Where is love? Where is God? The sky is changing -- the birds are dead Screams fill the air; Your children are gone Shells fill the sky, you hide in shame The rain is falling -- a rain of blood Where are our leaders? Where is justice Where is your god? Where is love? Nowhere... Nowhere! Where is justice? Where is friendship? Where is love? Where is God? Will we prevail? Will we survive? To live another day, to tell another story To raise another life To care for another fellow The time will come for us to stand Standing to purpose, standing to calling For justince, for friendship For Humanity, for love Music and Lyrics © 2008 Mauricio Alanis
10.
My Time 05:35
I'd climb the highest mountains I'd sail the deepest seas I'd comb the vastest deserts Searching for that missing part of me I felt that I should end it I thought that I should flee I'd never felt so lost and blind But I was too far gone to see And all I wanted was to be with you today And all I needed was your sweet embrace today This was not my time... It is not my time... And as you stood before me When I gazed into your eyes I thought that you might love me That your words weren't only lies Despite the way I felt for you I knew you were not right I put my fragile heart away And left you to the night And all I wanted was to be with you today And all I needed was your sweet embrace today This was not my time... It is not my time... This is not my time... It is not my time...

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bioassay's debut release. As a bonus for purchasing the whole album, you'll get a printable PDF tray card and liner, and the individual covers as the individual tracks were released between 2008 and 2009.

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released December 1, 2010

Music and Lyrics © 2010 Mauricio Alanis
Backing Vocals on "Grey Clouds" by Holly Jensen
Production and Mixdown: Mauricio Alanis
Design and Layout: Mauricio Alanis, Holly Jensen

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bioassay Los Angeles, California

bioassay is an electronic music project formed in early 2008 by Mauricio A. ([dj] ::analogue::) as an aural experiment drawn on the influences of Electro-Industrial, Futurepop and Electronic Music. Joined by Holly J. (DJ Engelockt) in 2009, the project soon incorporated background video montages during live performances as well as live keyboard support and backup vocal contribution by Engelockt. ... more

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